Look At Me, Trying To Be Wise by Mather Schneider

In an effort not to be ruled by emotion
I hide emotion.

In an effort not to appear stupid
I become self-consciousness and careful.

In an effort to be strong
I only appear strong.

In an effort to believe in one right way
I call all other ways wrong.

In an effort to be an individual
I stand in line.

In an effort to find peace
I cherish comfort and routine.

In an effort to be beautiful
my arrogance flowers.

In an effort to free myself
I make rules and guidelines.

In an effort to control
I kill.

In an effort to love
I parrot.

In an effort to do something meaningful
I run in circles

until I fall down.


Mather Schneider is 46 years old. He has had hundreds of poems and stories published since 1993 in places like Rattle, Nerve Cowboy, Slipstream, Nimrod, River Styx and Smokelong. He has 3 full length books, DROUGHT RESISTANT STRAIN, HE TOOK A CAB and THE SMALL HEARTS OF ANTS, with another, PRICKLY, coming early in 2017. He divides his time between Tucson, Arizona and northern Mexico, where his wife is from. He earns his living by driving a cab.

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